I’m That Cool Uncool Kid
For a long time I was that so so cool kid that always strived to be Ms. Popular in life.
In fact, I vividly remember being in the fourth grade in my pink sweater, matching pink corduroy pants, braids draping down my back with edges in full flourish dreaming about what I’d be like in college and as a young adult. You know….because clearly I had missed the boat in becoming most popular according to Kiera’s “I’m a cool kid” check list.
I told myself in college and beyond I’d be super popular, I’d pledge in somebody’s sorority, my boyfriend would be that dude in life just like me, and everyone would love me. That was what I wanted…at least that’s what I thought I wanted. You want to know how that panned out for me though? Oh, glad you asked. Let me tell you.
I pledged in the sorority of architecture my freshman year and that journey literally sucked up all of my time. Instead of being friends with the entire school, I took absolute comfort in being good friends with all of about 8 people with 3 of those friends crossing over into my family circle. I even became totally comfortable with the fact that my style of dress and my hair changes would end up getting me more attention than anything for a little while. And oh, that boyfriend….we met alright. His name was Casper and he usually showed up after Jesus would periodically require me to trash my roster because I sure knew how to pick them. (You might have missed it….it’s ok.)
Here’s the point…I used to be so concerned with fitting in. I was so focused on trying to pay attention to other people’s attention towards me that I lost who I really was. I wanted to be at all the parties (struggles I still deal with actually). I wanted for my name to at the center of everyone’s conversation. I wanted things that would act as nothing but void fillers. Thankfully though, what God gave me instead was so much better. He gave me actual substance and because of Him I know life is so much more than the shallow things I had once hoped to become/have. While that little girl was hoping to transform into something else, little did she know she was blossoming perfectly in all her cute, glasses toting, loud and chubby-cheeked awesomeness.
So I say this in hopes of encouraging you to be yourself today no matter what that looks like. You’re truly perfect that way.
Much love,
Ki, the too cool for school dreamer
That Cool Uncool Kid