What do you know? Still don't know much!

So I went to college or whatever. I did. I swear. I spent five years of my life dedicated to the architectural struggle and for some reason I just knew that once that journey ended I wouldn’t have to struggle as much. That was indeed thee biggest lie. Now being two years out in the field I can say with confidence that there is a whole world of architecture I do not know. Now I knew this going in of course, but to actually be in the thick of it now is totally different. I can remember people saying things to me like “you get a degree to prove that you can learn a skill” and “your degree just lets an employer know you can be taught”.

The amount of applicable knowledge from college into the actual profession, at least for me anyways, was little. My school, “Go Longhorns!”, was heavily design based and I’d say less heavy on the side of really teaching constructability. Mind you, you should pick the school that suits you. I have always been a lover of all things design so I was perfectly content with the scope of my education. The real world is the only thing that burst my bubble. So having to transition my critical thinking from design to real life constructibility was a TASK! Every day I am exposed to new acronyms and concepts. Each day I am blown away, frustrated to some degree, and driven by the amount of information I have yet to know. Recently, I’ve been considering beginning my AREs and that has done even more to expose me to how much I have to yet to learn.

Basically the take away here is that if you are in any way feeling like me know that you are not alone. The other take away here is for you is to not see this as how much you don’t know about the field, but instead see it as how much you get to learn. Can you only imagine how boring something would be if you knew it all and had no other way to expand your knowledge? I’d be willing to bet it would only make things so uneventful for you. Well….until then dreamers just know that I am both determined and amused at how the quickly this field has humbled me daily.

Stay tuned for the next struggle

KT

I’m Nobody’s Nothing (You Matter)

Honesty moment…as confident as I am in many other areas of life…my confidence in my intelligence/capabilities use to lag far….far behind me. Strange right? I know!

While I have gone ahead and addressed this lie time and time again, every now and then I still find confidence being put into question. For example, recently it seemed I was having an off day. (Disclaimer: I usually have some space cadet moments where I fire off questions I don’t think all the way through before posed. It’s made me the joy of people’s day, a huge source of laughter for some, and also the brunt of hurtful jokes at times to be quite honest.) Any who, in this off day I had posed about two questions at work of all places that when spoken aloud almost sent me straight into a confidence quest. The only difference between the way I handled these thoughts back then versus now is the fact that I have much more of an appreciation for my make as a person.

I realized that God modeled me after a very particular design, and God made NO mistake when he made me! While I might rattle off strange questions that might not make as much sense to the un-Kiera’d ear (yes, that’s a thing now haha), that same spacy thinking allows me to fire off about five creative ideas a day just about. This is unique to Kiera and I’ve come to love that part of me.

I say all this in hopes of convincing you guys that you’re nobody’s nothing. Everybody’s somebody’s everything! *cues up Chance* Learn to appreciate ANY and EVERY thing that makes you different because that person is awesome! There is no other you around! We might not be the world’s idea of a typical genius, gifted, accomplished or whatever else, but what you are is amazingly crafted! The world needs to see that somebody. Show them.

My name is Kiera, I think and talk a mile a minute, and I still don’t know everything there is to know about everything. I do know however, that I’m a SOMEBODY! Tuh! Better recognize! God told me so and now I’m telling you!